(2003 to 2005)

2004-02-27 2355

Sat Feb 28 00:04:00 UTC+1100 2004


Been trying to go to bed for a few hours. But I kept thinking of something after an hour on the floor, so I'd get up and spend 30 mins on my computer, then go back on the floor again. I've done some shadow boxing, and a few chin-ups, my muscles are starting to loosen up, which is nice.

I'm pissed off. Not sure why exactly, I can't decide if I'm pissed off with myself, or everybody else. Not *extremely* pissed off mind you, not fuming or upset, just sort of 'funny'. You know, 'splinter in my mind' style..

Tonight I'm convinced that most people in the world are stupid. I think I'd hate to look inside their brains and see what was really going on. But that's wrong isn't it? Talk about arrogance.. yeah, I know.

So, maybe it's me. I had a passing thought that my life is about as fake as you can get. I live in a room and interact with a keyboard and screen for most of my waking hours. This isn't real. I'm not really typing to anyone. No-one will read this, I'm the only one here. I think that's a part of my subconcious, obviously when I think about it, I know that it's not true, but there's still something resembling that mentality that seems to be present.


I'm gonna go play woor and frag some demon hunter arse.


Copyright © 2003-2005 John Elliot