(2003 to 2005)


Mon Apr 11 22:14:00 UTC+1000 2005


I can not tell you what I think, because I do not know what that is.

I can not tell you the truth, because I do not believe it is attainable, let alone profess to know it.

I can not communicate honestly with you, because I do not understand anything.

I regularly suspend my disbelief and cling to notions of truth and meaning, even in that context I have doubts regarding your ability to interpret my expression of the truth, and sometimes I am concerned with how my flawed attempt might cause you to respond.

I am aware only of action, and consequence. A process I perceive as controlling me, not a process I control.

I do that which I find interesting.

I communicate openly, understanding that I am manipulating my world, as my world manipulates me.

I strive for a sense of integrity, but fear it is unattainable. I am a part of the universe, not a discrete entity within it.

Copyright © 2003-2005 John Elliot