(2003 to 2005)

How I do things that I'm afraid of..

Sat Jul 17 17:44:00 UTC+1000 2004


I have to go driving shortly. I'm not dressed yet, so I won't be leaving for a while, but I have some trepidation about going down to the car. :P

I'm a relatively competent driver, but I'm not great. I think that my main problem is that I'm too reckless and aggressive, and I don't actually 'fear' crashing. I want to avoid it (*obviously*), but I'm not afraid of it happening. I've been in a few car accidents (both as a driver and passenger) and while they certainly *should* be feared (because you know, you and others can die, etc.), they are kind of exciting, and the destruction has some sort of decadent appeal. I worry about damaging other people's property when I'm parking. I don't like being engaged in an activity that I can't stop doing if a spider crawls on to me, etc.

I remember how nervous I was the first driving lessons I had.

I remember at the time how I overcame my nerves. It was the first time that I had ever used this process to get over a fear, so I remember it.

I considered a person that I considered to be less competent than me (name withheld to protect the guilty ;). Then I decided that one day this person would get their driving license. If they could do it, then so could I.

I've since pretty much come to adopt that attitude in everything that I do.

That is, if it can be done, then I can do it.

Generally the only limiting factor is time.


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